Social Contract? Fuck off Hobbes.

I declare my Social Contract void. I do this on the basis that my existence is no longer enhanced by it, and that is the promise on the other end. That or I’m too much of a self-absorbed crazy person to pretend otherwise. The balance between what I could have had and what has been taken away is to extreme. Instead of providing me with greater health and understanding I have been given more health risks and brain washing. I have grown up in a society in which the risk of cancer and god knows what has been increased greatly by all the "wonders" of life so that more forums of telling me what to think and how can be multiplied. I can’t escape it. Why do I keep thinking maybe the Amish are onto something?

                We increase the bandwidth traveling to our crotch all the time while going back and forth on the idea if those signals increasing the risk of cancer. We surround ourselves with radon emitting stone, hazardous chemicals and I don't even think god knows what else. Hell even the air we breathe in the cities and towns is full of crap. I imagine sometimes God or whoever has to be sitting there think... "Don't mix those! I never even thought you would do that! Why would you do that?!" I think we are much like the romans and their zeal with lead. We create without thinking it through and provide it on a massive scale. How little we have learned from our past, and even while some scream -- wait wait let’s look at this we plow forward. We allow crap food all around us because it tastes good and now our bodies yearn only for that salty oily concoction that slowly kills us. These things all kill more every year than 9/11 and all troops following ever did but hell who cares? It makes money. Capitalism forever! Pff and you have the audacity to tell me not to smoke some plants go fuck yourself.

                Along with polluting our bodies our minds are destroyed at a very young age. We beat those who think differently through school and force them to want to have the latest craze. You ought to wear this, watch this program, and play this game. Odd the parallels with the products that are more expensive, more violent and oh require the least amount of individual thought. Great you now own a stupid (ya that’s me trying to push my idea of what is worthwhile on you) purse that cost how much? You got to be shitting me that probably could have fed someone in a starving country for a month or something noble like that. Also while I’m being insulting it looks ugly and hardly practical (unless you are looking to blind than beat to death a robber)

Assuming this is a problem, and I do, what is the solution? Well I’m going to choose to be my own man from here on out. I’m going to think for myself and research for myself. I’m not going to buy every crappy thing that comes out and I’m not going to hold my tongue any longer. Sure I’ll look like a jackass but I’ve found out I look like that anyway so I’m really not changing anything. I’m going to start writing things that probably no one will read or if they do they will probably start to think I’m a crazy person or hate me. I can’t very well claim that I have been wronged I suppose. While all this has been force fed to me ever since I was released into society I never had a gun to my head. I freely gave up my free will and independent thought to fox and the American dream… which I’m still confused as to what is? Well since no one knows and I don’t, I think I’m good without it. Also this “American way of life” doesn’t seem all that great either and I sure don’t want to kill to preserve it. I don’t want to kill at all let alone for oil or anyone’s freedom. What’s the point? We all piss on the flag every day when we give up our freedom for security. For us all I apologize to those who have died fighting for our freedom. We have disgraced them by giving in to fear and laziness.  

 I have grown to hate Disney. Perhaps they aren't the worst culprit and probably it was there before but we all have some very odd ideas about what our goals for a companion ought to be. We all seem to have this fancy notion of love and living happily ever after. With this belief everyone goes forth and finds some jackass they can change, or some girl with whom we will stop being a jerk all the sudden with. "Oh she has change me guys I'm no longer the prick I was growing up" Nah your still a prick but you've now decided your too lazy to keep being that way for the moment. "Oh I'm in love and he is so misunderstood and now he has changed, he is really a nice guy" Ha! I don't think you know the first thing about love or how a “nice” person treats those around them. I give it a year. Ah shoot turns out he is still a jackass and she still thinks she can't survive without a man in her life. Sure it’s our human nature but God or whoever gave us this whole think for ourselves and free will gift. It's just amazing how we love to give to that up. I suppose it is easier for us to be told what to think and what to do than do it for ourselves.

                People don't seem like being told what they are eating is bad for them. They don't like to know they married to young to fast and it was a mistake. Who likes to give up what defines who they are? If you spend 40 years developing into this person you aren’t than what happens to those 40 years when you say damn, I had it all wrong. Who likes to give up their creature comforts? If things are the only thing making you happy right now how can you possibly discard them or accept that really they don't make you happy and your just a another spineless drone. 

                I use to think playing angry birds and watching the newest movie made me happy, now I know better what makes me happy. It’s still angry birds…  and a few more things. I know I only really enjoy it when I am around other people that can be honest with themselves. Being around people who lie to themselves and me is now exhausting. We only include things in our life that WE enjoy and not because anyone else told us we would. Not because it was told to us in an advertisement. Technology has given us a great many things, but not all of them we should dive into just yet I think. Even all the things that I enjoy like internet, cars, and what little health is afforded me is not worth what I have to give up for them. Oh cookie dough is still badass but I’m working on it.

                Do you deny that the government and corporations in general want to control what you know and think? Do you think it’s a joke? Try turning off your television for a month, walk around and look at what is around you. Well before calling me crazy and a loon (which both are true but that’s neither here nor there) you ought to look at the research they have done into HOW to do it. That’s your USA and your friendly companies. You should look at what they decide to tell you and what they don't. Then if you still don't think they do, well maybe I'm just crazier than I think but I’ll probably go with you’re an idiot. Ignorance can be an excuse but when faced with the knowledge that someone or something is controlling you and saying you don’t care, well fuck you’re not even a person anymore and I’ll call you what I please.  I'm not all that smart, or that fast but I am honest with myself, and I can't tell myself I like the price we pay for these comforts of life. I might have been weak minded before and allowed myself to be told what to think but I won't now or ever again. 

A rant to my Poor parents who didn't deserve it at all...

Hello Mama and Dad,

            Watching and reading foreign news reports, our military reports, and all this raw footage its amazing what doesn’t make the news here. I use to criticize the Chinese for putting up with such censorship of their media and joke about ours being controlled. I’m not joking anymore. It is actually very scary. I feel horrible about what we have done and continue to do.

I can only blame us for rolling over and ever accepting all this. We have allowed it to happen and every day joke or shrug it off. We all see it happen but apathy is so easy. We don’t care that we know we are not getting the real news. It sickens me. My tax dollars are stripped from me and rather than pay for roads, schools, medical science, transportation, energy research, or NASA things I actually care about I know it will be used to terrorize and murder. I see video testimony from military members that left and spoke out. I wish I could have been that strong. I can claim ignorance for the first 2 years, but I served for nearly four years realizing the horror that we were doing and barely said anything because I didn’t want to upset the people around me. I’m sure that the dead, starving, and displaced people understand that though.

I remember when I use always say oh I don’t support the war but I support the troops. Now I know I only said that because how can I say that they shouldn’t being taking up arms or supporting the war machine when I did the very same thing. I was probably a lot more aware of it than most as well which makes it worse. How can I say hey I don’t support you joining and I don’t support you continuing to serve when I couldn’t do the same myself? I suppose I always knew I would come to a head with the military but I think my soul would have been much better served had I stood up for what was right rather than drinking myself out.

I feel that we are all so used by our government. Everyone seems not to care that they are. We watch has our world falls apart with corporate greed and no one takes personal responsibility. We are all so concerned with making sure we do less work for more money and that “no one gets the better of us”. So we shirk our actual jobs, we find ourselves miserable with what we do. Is this the misplaced anger of what we know to be going on around us? We are a petty weak people but we shall be a grand example for the rest of the world on what NOT to do. To have so much and to throw it all away. The greatest gift the American people shall ever give the world is what a spoiled child looks like as a country.  Just like the empires before us each one is better. They are always stronger, grander, discovering more amazing new concepts and of course respect the individual’s freedom more. The Persians, the Romans, the English, the French the Germans and the Americans all grand Empires of example. And we always took the best and learned from the mistakes to an extent. The one that comes after ours should be truly grand, well I hope I live long enough to see it.

Every time I think I have it all figured out I later discover how ignorant I was. All around me all anyone is concerned about is money. Some for personal greed, some because it’s the only thing they have left to make them happy and others because it really is the only way to feed their families.

Yet I see the same people that bitch about not being able to buy something for themselves or their kids they go and buy new phones that are completely unnecessary, some sort of gas guzzling machine or other random wastes of money. I see people claim awareness of what we are doing with gas and than buy another gas guzzler when they have absolutely no use for it. Its almost like they really don’t have any self control. Why do you need that? Don’t you know you’ll just be unhappy with it in a few months? Don’t you know it will be junk in a year?

Or girls will gush about how cool trucks are. Fuck trucks. Unless you have an actual use for buying one fuck you too. I see people all around me aware but uncaring. It is like watching people poison themselves knowing exactly what they are doing but pretends its just water. I hear people criticize folks for getting a “Smart Car” or anything small and laugh when some other guy rams it with his big car. Alright yeah calling it a smart car was a stupid thing to do… not so smart anymore are u smart guy… but that they aren’t good to buy because there are to many other jackasses on roads that don’t know how to drive and hit you doesn’t make them a bad buy, means you live around a bunch of ignorant jackasses who can’t drive. Than they will laugh about how when they hit you they didn’t even feel it in their over sized environmental foot stomp.

I feel like putting a sticker on my car to make sure everyone knows that people died for the gas we are driving.

It would probably read something dumb like “HEY BUDDY, PEOPLE DIED AND WE KILLED EM SO YOU COULD MAKE BELIEVE YOU DON”T HAVE A SMALL DICK” and I’d probably get rammed, but boy I’d laugh my ass off when I saw the look on their face.

Every company, including ones I use to believe in sacrifice providing an actual service to the community, like a good product, to save money here or there. They don’t ever really believe in the mission. They tolerate laziness and half assed worked rather than cause a fuss and possible harassment charges? Or because they can’t very well tell others to stay on target when they themselves don’t really do anything. Business executives are one the more useless fields and the best paid go figure. They don’t do any problem solving they just hear there is a problem and tell others to fix it. All they do is pad their own bill away from the company.

I defiantly have lost my Zen; I was in a good zone for a couple months there. I guess I cut back on the yoga and going to temple. Irish anger, it’s a bitch.

Sorry for the language but that’s the nature of rant from your son,

Love,

 Michael

The - Scratch that- MY American Dream

Do you hate it when someone tells you about a dream they had last night? Do you nod quickly and hope it will be over soon? Me too... so if I was me I wouldn't read all this. To summerize... disapointed (understatement) with USA... laughable and lost dreams of a country... even more laughable and impossible dreams of mine... witty closing involving moving to Canada.

Lately I've been searching for what the American Dream is. People seem to describe it mostly as something they strive to protect or work towards. Few others seem to despise it and turn away. Though I can't seem to tack down a modern American Dream. Is it still the white picket fence with Apple Pie and the laughter of children? Is it making it to Hollywood? Is it starting a small business and having it take off into some grand corporation? Is it that we will all stand together united in harmony? Or something less lofty like lower gas prices?

From what I've seen and read I sure as hell hope it is none of the above because we would be failing miserably. We don't seem to be able to keep a family unit or a house, Hollywood is a joke, and your best bet is to be bought out by Wall mart. And as far as harmony, can you use that word in the same sentence as our country? Or that we would actually stand for anything? We just fall for everything. And as far as gas prices go well I don't need to

When I search for the American Dream online I get a lot of pictures of the red while and blue, jokes, some really fat guys, and this 40s chick with a rifle. I also found a quote from James Turslow Adams where he says in regards to The American Dream "life should be better and richer and fuller for everyone, with opportunity for each according to ability or achievement." This does not seem to be working out.

So I have decided to embrace my idealistic self and write down what MY American dream is. Than as a true American (because a true US citizen only acknowledges ourselves as Americans) I will attempt to push my view point on everyone else, with force or money if possible. (Fortunately for ya'll I have neither but instead a really long Dream) I do this as I feel I should feel the dissapointment of all these other dreamers.

My American Dream....
Is to hold my head high when I call myself an American. In my Dream we are a country that leads by example. The example we set is one of respect for free will, freedom and justice. We don't retreat from a promise and we never turn away someone from our country. We never invade someone else's country. Our troops are here and here alone. People may immigrate here and if they please take back the solid values and pure intentions we preach back to their homeland or stay and become one of us. We work in harmony with the environment around us and are not afraid to love Mother Nature. We care about one another not because it is popular or because others may find reason to dislike us (we only want a good excuse to hate our neighbor) if we don't but because we can actually empathize with our fellow man. We never inflict our will over others and there we have few laws and even less police necessary. Drug abuse is eliminated with proper education and knowledge, and by not driving the citzens into depression. Government leaders are honest and listen to their constituents. Police violence is unheard of as the power of the police is never abused. Fox News doesn't exist. We never spend more on war than education or infrastructure. In my Dream I am not an accomplice to murder and I don't feel like spitting on police when I see them. I don't feel a loathing for every politician. I don't feel like a jackass for suggesting that we burn down McDonalds... or that at least we don't include them in Children's Hospitals. I don't feel like a jackass when I tell someone they are a jackass for driving around in a truck they don't use. In my Dream the NSA doesn't monitor every e-mail, text, and phone call I and my fellow citizens make. In my Dream capitalization does not kill inventions like the electric car or light bulbs that would last forever. In my Dream every citizen understands freedom isn't free and does not call on you or your life when it is convenient. In my Dream terrorists are obsolete as their tactics would never work on our citizens. In my Dream other countries would never think to harm us and our ideal of freedom spreads like a plague. In my Dream we don’t use force to push our ideas, especially when we don’t hold to them ourselves. In my Dream we don’t lie or kill. In my Dream we are a good people. In my Dream I'm not afraid of my government.

In my Dream, to look on the face of an AMERICAN is to look upon the face of Honor, Integrity, and a whole lot of pursuit of happiness. We are a happy people.

I dream a lot. I think I'll realize my dream is to move to Canada and get it over with.